Me and My Journey

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God Is Punctual Part 1

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On our way home from vacation we realized that we needed not one new tire but two new tires.  Of coarse, anyone who drives any kind of SUV knows that tires can be pretty pricey.  So I went online to find quotes and to no surprise the cheapest tire for my van was ninety-four dollars.  Unfortunately, after paying all the household bills, there wasn’t hardly anything left.  So I did as I always have which is thanked God in advance for safely getting my family and I to and from our daily destinations.  The van was feeling worse and worse as the days went but, all I could do at this point was to leave it in God’s hands.

So on August 23, 2016, my husband drove to the store in our van with the intent of getting at least one tire.  My mother-in-law, whom was helping us could only afford one tire since they are roughly after taxes about a hundred dollars.  Naturally, I am thankful for just that!  At this point, safety was starting to be a major concern.

Well my husband gets to the store and tells the lady behind the counter what size tire he needed.  He also informed her that he needed the cheapest tire they have.  So she proceeds to look in the system to see what they have in stock.  This is where it gets good my friends! I promise! Just stay with me….

The lady informs my husband that she has only two tires left in the particular size we needed.  Now, guess how much those tires were! Go ahead, take a wild guess!  Did you take a guess?  Well I’m about to tell you! Are you ready for this?  Drum roll please!!!

The last two tires she had in stock with the EXACT size we needed were FIFTY DOLLARS EACH! Yup! Go ahead and say it! WOW! RIGHT?!  Man!  When my husband called and told me the news my jaw LITTERALY DROPPED guys! So we actually got the two tires we needed for half the price we were expecting!  God.  IS.  SO.  GOOD!  This is why I say yes God is good.  God is love.  God is unconditional.  God is all that and so much more.  But along with all that, He is PUNCTUAL!  God is never early nor is He never late.  He is……ALWAYS ON TIME!

My take away from this is the following:

It is my belief that due to the severity of the tires, something bad was about to happen.  So God, putting His hedge of protection around us, made it to where my husband went to the store at that particular time that he did.  To take it a bit further, God set those two tires aside for us!  So now I can once again get behind the wheel and feel safe.

Stay tuned for part 2 of this awesome story!

Luke 18:27(ESV)

But he said, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.”


Write It Down

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Almost ten years ago I decided that I was not satisfied with the way my life was going.  After going through one bad relationship after another and making one bad decision after another, I finally said to myself “enough is enough!”  After deep thought of what I wanted for my life I sat down and wrote a quite long and extremely detailed list of the things I wanted.  Let me say this before I go any further: wanting more out of your life does not make you less of a Christian or ungrateful for what you already have and done!  If you are completely satisfied with what you have and have no desire to go any further in life, then your job is done.  But as long as you are on this Earth, God wants more for you and you should want more for yourself as well.

Anyway, when I made this list, I did not realize the huge impact it would make on my life today.  God tells us Himself in Habakkuk 2:2 clear as day! Habakkuk 2:2 says ‘And the Lord answered me and said, “Write the vision and engrave it so plainly upon tablets that everyone who passes may [be able to] read [it easily and quickly] as he hastens by.

Mind you, when I made my list nearly a decade ago, I honestly had no idea of this verse! So, now that I am spiritually stronger and seeing this verse, I get chills just thinking about it! In fact, my hands a quivering as I write this very story!

Let me give you a couple examples of what I wrote on my list back in 2008.

One of the things I wrote on my very long list was I wanted a good, God fearing man who owned his own house, had good credit, and had a good and stable job.  Shortly after writing this list and looking at it daily, I started dating the man that I am now happily married to.  December 11, 2016 will mark our five year anniversary.

Another thing I wrote on this list was that I wanted a little girl.  I wrote her first and middle name down and looked and read it daily.  Well guess what guys!  On December 16, 2015 at 7:52am, I got to finally meet and hold my little princess!!  Of coarse there was an added bonus and surprise because she was born exactly one minute after her twin brother!  It’s crazy, right!?!? I know!

So let me ask you something. Be honest with not only me but yourself as well.  Have you thought about what you want in life?  If you thought about it, have you written it down and seen it come to pass?  If so, please share your story with me in the comments section.  I would love to hear your story!  If you have not thought about what you want in life and written it down, then I encourage you to do so.  Make a list and make it as detailed as possible.  I’ve said it before, if you’ve tried everything else, then why not try this.  You have nothing to lose and a whole lot to gain!


Stay Focused

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With everything that’s going on in today’s world and in our personal lives, it’s easy to lose focus sometimes.  We tend to get engulfed in everything around us and get off the path that the Lord has put us on.

Now more than ever, we must stay focused on our path and keep our eyes on our Lord and Savior.  He knows exactly what’s going on around us more than we do Crazy, right?  But it’s true!

Look, I know it sounds crazy but, it’s the truth.  I myself struggle with staying focused.  My plate is full to the max!  I have my seven month teething twins, my hyper active five-year-old, and my three-year-old(Hurricane Isaac) that refuses to go potty in the toilet.  As if that wasn’t enough, there is also my fifteen-year-old.  You know as well as I do that teenagers are a whole another species of their own!  Plus, my phone rings off the hook with bill collectors demanding money that we just don’t have at this time.  So believe me when I tell you to stay focused, I completely understand it can be oh so difficult.  It’s difficult but, sweetheart, IT AIN’T IMPOSSIBLE!  Why?  Because nothing is impossible with God! You can take that to the bank!

When you find yourself losing focus, stop and breathe.  Completely surrender yourself to God.  Pray for strength, knowledge, and understanding for the things you CAN control.  Then, honey, THAT’S IT!  Let God do His thing!

God does some pretty miraculous things, my friend.  I’ve seen it with my own eyes in my personal life.  You will see it as well if you allow yourself to…

So remember, stay focused.  Keep your eyes on the Lord.  Keep pushing forward as back is NOT an option!!

Colossians 3:2

And set your minds and keep them set on what is above(the higher things), not on the things that are on earth.

Conquer Defeat With Prayer


It seems like we have been hit with everything.  While our trials and tribulations that my household is going through may very well be normal everyday life, things seem to be a bit heavier these days.  the feelings of defeat and uselessness seem to lurk around my thoughts and heart sometimes.

So how do you conquer these awful feelings?  First, you need to understand that these feelings of defeat and uselessness are not of God.  When God formed us in our mother’s womb, He did not create us to be defenseless and useless.  So when you feel these negative feelings you must understand that it is just the adversary trying to break you down.  The adversary’s mission is to stop you from fulfilling your anointed purpose of which God has bestowed on you because the adversary knows how strong you really are.  Once you realize that this feeling of defeat or whatever negative feeling you feel is not of our Almighty Father, you pray just as I did.

For the first time in my life I physically got on my knees and prayed!  There’s something about physically getting to your knees and praying.  As far as what that something is, I couldn’t tell you.  All I can tell you is I felt something I have never felt before.  The minute my knees hit the floor, and I began praying, the tears flowed from my eyes like crazy!

By the end of my heart felt prayer, the weight was taken off my shoulders.  The weight along with the feelings of defeat and uselessness were gone.  My issues are still there but, I’m able to see with more clarity than before.  There’s a peace within me now.

Prayer may not always solve your problems in the blink of an eye but, it will always bring you peace.  That peace is knowing that God is already taking care of it.  Faith.  Cast that net and allow God to do His thing and He will do things that are beyond our wildest imagination and comprehension.

Philippians 4:6

Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition(definite requests) with thanksgiving and continue to make your wants known to God

Faith is All We Have

I write today with a heavy heart.  I have come to a point in my life to where I can not hear the news anymore.  I have purposefully purged it out of my Face Book page and replaced the bad with the good.  My Face Book page is filled with positive pictures, stories, and quotes of God’s love.  Although I have chosen to not hear of these things, you and I both know that it is impossible to not hear of the abuse, senseless violence and killings going on in our world today.  So the little bit that I do hear about, I pray with a broken, heavy heart.

As a Christian, I should not be surprised at all this.  After all, it states quite clearly in the Book of Revelation what will happen in the end times.  But yet, my jaw continuously drops everyday at what is going on.  Of coarse, this is just the beginning.

With that being said, faith is all we have to hold on to.  Faith allows us to be at peace knowing that God has a plan and purpose for each and every one of us.  Faith allows us to know that when we cry out to Jesus, He is not deaf or blind to our tears and pain.  We must stand our ground with our faith and not give in to this raging storm that we are in the middle of.  We must continue to pray for one another and stop labeling each other by race, sex, religion, etc.  We are all connected through the body of Christ who loves us dearly.  Christ like love needs to pour from our souls!

If we stand strong in our faith, we just might be able to help a lost soul.  Faith is all we have and we need it and God now more than ever…

1 John 3:11

For this is the message that you have heard from the beginning, that we should love one another

John 16:33

I have said these things to you, that in Me you may have peace.  In the world you will have tribulation.  But take heart; I have overcome the world.

We All Have Giants

We all have giants.  A giant, plainly put, is anything that is before us that we feel is bigger than us.  Let me say it again…. A giant is anything that is before us that we FEEL is bigger than us.  Addiction, a job, and bills are some of the many giants that we all face in our lives.  For me personally, my current giant is a huge giant with a BIG FAT DOLLAR SIGN on it!  My giant right now is my bills.  I face this thing everyday!

Here’s the kicker ya’ll!  No matter how big my giant is, God is so much bigger! I face my giant with God on my side!  It’s an amazing feeling to know that being a child of God, I am protected and taken care of.  So no matter what giant I face, I know that God is at the front!  All I have to do is have faith.  Listen, when I say have faith, I mean it only takes a little!  God is complex and simple all the same.  All He asks for is a grain of a mustard seed of faith.  THAT’S IT! I mean, have you seen how small a grain of a mustard seed really is?  One grain is 1-2 millimeters in size! That is TINY!  But that’s all it takes.  That little bit of faith is all it takes to give us power over any giant that comes our way.  That is just amazing to me!

So my question to you dear friend is this: What giants are you facing today?  Are you facing them by yourself?  If so, how is that working for you?  You must find yourself tired and defeated a lot.  I know that’s how I felt when I was fighting by myself.  Look, life is hectic as it is folks.  If you know that there is an easier route than the route you’re currently on, then why not take the easier route? Makes sense right?  Try it! You’ve tried everything else, so why not try just one more thing.  A mustard seed.  That’s all it takes…mustard seed

Matthew 17:20

He said to them, “Because of your little faith.  For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to his mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”

God Knows the Desires of Our Hearts

Once again my husband’s pay check came.  We were blessed in the fact that it was enough to pay SOME bills enough to keep them off our backs.  But there was no room for anything else.  This kills me because my five-year-old has been wanting to go to the lake since the summer has started.  It really only costs five dollars per car to get in.  But then, you have to factor in gas, food, and water for the day trip.

On my way home from grocery shopping, I was trying to map out our finances in a way to where we could actually go to the lake.  This trip was definitely needed for the whole family.  We all really needed some time in the sun for a little bit.  After mentally mapping out our finances, there just wasn’t enough money left to do it this weekend.  I accepted it and moved on.  I was not about to get upset or depressed because we couldn’t go do what I wanted to do.  I chose to praise God for what He has done for us now and what He will do for us tomorrow, the next day, and there after.

I’m in the house on the phone when my mail lady beeps her horn outside.  She gets out and hands me this envelope.  It’s addressed to me but, there is no return address on it.  Of coarse, curiosity gets me every time, I just couldn’t wait to open it….So….I DIDN’T!  While talking to my mail lady, I open up the envelope to find a card.  In the card was a gift card.  Inside the card was written the following:

“Hope this helps you and your family.

                    Be blessed!”

So, this envelope did not have a return address and the card was not signed either.  Also, there was no receipt showing the balance of the gift card.  After a few minutes, I called the number to check the balance expecting to hear a balance of maybe twenty-five or fifty dollars.  BOY! WAS I WRONG!

After dialing the number and following the instructions, I hear the following:

“The remaining balance on this gift card is FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS.”  Immediately after hearing this I quickly hang up the phone!  I got so excited, I gave myself a headache!  At this point, I just need to lay down for a little while.

After waking up from my nap, I decide to call the gift card again.  Maybe I misunderstood?  Maybe I was wrong?  NOPE!  Somebody actually sent me a five hundred dollar gift card!  So now, yes we can take that day trip to the lake and get some things for the house as well!

You see, God knew how bad I wanted this family trip.  He also knew that I felt bad because my five-year-old is on summer vacation and we have not been able to do anything because we are so financially strapped.  So God put something in the works and abundantly blessed us.  He put it on someone’s heart to do this.  I am truly thankful what whomever sent me this card, allowed God to use them.

As I have stated in past stories, God knows and hears us.  So keep praying! Keep talking to Him!  Don’t give up!  Trust me! I am speaking from personal experience!

Psalm 37:5(ESV)

Commit your way to the Lord;  trust in Him;  and He will act.

Whose Time Clock Are You On?

I have five beautiful kids whom I love dearly.  God has blessed me with four incredibly handsome boys and one beautiful petite little princess.

So lets go back fifteen years.  On December 12, 2000, my first child was born.  Erik was an impeccably good baby.  Even as he grew into I his toddler years, I didn’t have the same challenges other moms had when he was two.  So when he turned two, I decided I wanted a little girl.  On December 18, 2009, I moved to Georgia from Ft. Lauderdale to be with my husband.  Shortly after I moved to Georgia with my oldest son, I learned that I was pregnant.  Since this was my husband’s first child, he wanted to find out the sex of the baby the old fashion way.  He wanted to wait until the baby was born to find out if it was a boy or a girl.  Of coarse, anyone who knows me knows that this killed me the whole pregnancy! So I started putting it out there that even though it has not been confirmed, that it is a girl.  I told everyone that it was a girl because God knew I wanted one so bad.  So the whole pregnancy I rubbed my belly and referred to it as my princess, baby girl, etc.

October 5, 2010, we went in for an induction.  By October 6, 2010 our first born as a couple came into this world.  When the baby was born, they informed me that it was a boy!  Still on many medications  from the delivery, I sat up and asked the whole staff in the room if they were sure!  I just couldn’t believe I was wrong!  The feeling that it was my little princess was so strong!  So now I’m blessed with two beautiful boys at this point.

Three years later I’m pregnant again.  This time I told my husband WE WERE NOT GOING TO WAIT THIS TIME TO FIND OUT THE SEX OF THE BABY!  So, my husband, two sons, and I went to the ultrasound appointment to find out that we were having yet another boy.  While I was happy he was healthy and progressing, a part of me was heart broken because at this point my desire for my little princess grew stronger by the day.  By the time my third son turned one I accepted the fact that having a little girl just wasn’t in God’s plan for me.  I accepted it, but did not like it.  Honestly, I didn’t really accept it because we kept trying for a little while.  Our attempts were unsuccessful and I wasn’t getting any younger.  So I decided to put a time stamp on it.  I said if I did not have a little girl by the time I was thirty-five, THAT’S IT! I’m getting my tubes tied!

Early June of 2015, I find out that I’m pregnant with not one baby but two babies!  Immediately, when I found out, I looked up pointing my index finger saying to God “Oh you’re funny!”  At that point I was praying even harder for one of those babies to be my princess!  About four months into the pregnancy, I find out that I’m having yet ANOTHER BOY……..AND A GIRL!  I was so excited and overwhelmed with joy that I cried and started praising God.  In fact, I was so happy, I brought the ultrasound tech to tears because I don’t believe she ever saw someone so happy that they were having a girl!  Finally, on December 16, 2016 (two and a half months before my thirty-fifth birthday) I finally got to meet my little princess whom for thirteen years I asked and prayed for.  Of coarse, I am completely done having babies! I now have four beautiful boys and my little princess.

I gave up having a little girl because it didn’t happen on my time when I wanted it.  God had one plan and I had another

So when you ask God for something and He doesn’t make it happen immediately, don’t give up.  Believe me He hears you.  God does answer prayers.  It maybe immediately or in my case, thirteen years later.  God makes things happen on His time and according to His plan.  He will either answer your prayer exactly as you asked or with a little twist.  However, He will answer.  We just have to give it to Him, sit back, watch and listen…

1John 5:14-15

And this is the confidence that we have toward Him, that if we ask anything according to His will He hears us.

And if we know that He hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of Him.


At the age of seven years old, I was molested by a man that was a friend of my family for fifteen years.  This man was considered a part of the family.  He could come in the house as early as five in the morning and probably was given coffee and food to eat.

I remember one night I just couldn’t hold this awful dirty secret in anymore.  I finally confessed to my mom what was going on.  Of coarse, in the blink of an eye, the cops were called and the investigation began.  Once the investigation was complete, he was thankfully put away.  After all that, my parents took me to counseling.

The guilt and anger I carried was so strong and heavy.  As I grew older, I wanted nothing to do with men.  There was no desire to ever get married or have children.  The idea of doing life “alone” was perfectly fine with me.  As I started middle school, the guilt started to go away but the anger grew much more.  At that point, I decided that I wanted to be a lawyer.  I wanted to be the one to put those people away FOR A VERY LONG TIME! Just like some judges had reputations to be “the hanging judge,” I wanted that same reputation as a lawyer.  Once this was set in my head, I took it upon myself to start studying different cases and such.

I think I was about fifteen or so when I woke up one morning and decided that I just couldn’t live like that anymore.  Living in such a dark place with so much anger was taking everything out of me.  I missed out on so much because of it.  So I walked down stairs to talk to my mom about it.  As she was standing in front of the sink washing a dish, I told her that I forgave the man that invaded my body.  Nearly dropping the dish, she looked at me like I had ten heads! I told her that I just couldn’t carry that burden any longer.  I’ll never forget what happened to me.  However, I did forgive.  Now, I will tell you this; If I saw him on the street, I would give him money to eat if I have it.  Don’t get it twisted though.  He of course would never be allowed to come close to my home or children…

Even back then, before I was saved, God was talking to me.  It was not of my own strength that I decided to forgive.  It was God.  God knew in that in order for me to be where I am today, I had to let go.  I had to move on.  I mean do you really think that if I lived through my life with that anger, that I would be married with five children today? No friend, I would not!! Therefore, I have absolutely no regret in that decision what so ever! God wanted me to forgive that man as He has forgiven us of our sin.  So I did.  And so eighteen years later, I am in a good, Godly marriage with five absolutely beautiful children…

Ephesians 4:31(ESV)

Let all the bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.

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